don't let me crumble

Setbacks in life are inevitable. No matter how deep you try to coop yourself up in your shell, you can never go deep enough to avert it. I know despite what I have chose to do, I'll still have to get out of it and face the music. Its daunting to know what awaits me out there, it makes me want to just wanna stay in my comfort zone. I'm not ready to be pelt with problems after problems. All I want to do is build a defence for myself and keep myself well guarded so I don't have to face the world.

I don't know what's the next move I'm gonna have to make. Only thing I know is its mandatory for me to make a decision quick because the longer time I take to think, the greater the damage done. As of now, I know I've already created quite a substantial amount of hurt. And I'm truly sorry. But I don't want to be carrying such a heavy burden with me everywhere I go, I don't wanna go around faking a smile, I don't wanna neglect my ownself for something unattainable, I don't wanna be holding onto a rope that'll rupture and land me in an abyss, thus whatever decision I'm going to make, trust me it'll hurt but it'll heal, in a matter of time.

Perhaps it'll take time to understand where I'm coming from, but these are the thoughts that's been bothering me.