This isn't the way it was supposed to be, right? I've been acting against my own conscience, which often leaves me asking myself whether what I am doing is right or wrong. I'm at the state where I failed to differentiate what is right and what is wrong. I got myself tangled up in a mess, and I'm totally helpless. I really don't know how to face up to the bitch-ass reality. All I know right now is that I am in the wrong and I cannot salvage this no matter what I do because one is bound to be miffed. I'm peeved at myself for getting myself in this mess.
Right now, I don't know who to turn to. And I got guilt plastered all over me. Fuck. Hate this, hate this, hate this.
Life isn't all butterflies and rainbows, right?
And problems just come tumbling one after another.
Gimme a break, please.
I need to sort myself out first before I can start thinking coherently again.
