Lately, I haven't been able to go to sleep with a peace of mind. I derived far too many absurd conclusions at the end of the day from the things said or done earlier on. It doesn't help that the settings of my mind spells paranoia. Anything said or done is opposed too frequently, that its hard for me to differentiate what is right and what is wrong. My mind is often violated with the inner voice, the inner voice that always seek nothing but trouble for me. Sigh. As hard as I try to fend off this voice in me, its always reaching out for me. I can only afford to be vulnerable and give in to it.
I am sorry to you, for you've been patient with me, yet I never failed to disappoint you time and again. Numerous promises were made from me to you to be more open and not bottle up my emotions. I never want you to be the one having to handle this burden here, but I can't bear to see you go either. I should learn to be more adapting to people and learn to dissect the good from bad. I know I seem to doubt your words most of the time, but please know that I don't. I do have faith in you. And no doubt you've carved a part of yourself in me.
I miss you.
