I made a major mistake.

How could I let myself fall into her trap and let that devil manipulate my mind? I'm in deep shit. If only I had use my brains at that critical moment. Things wouldn't have ended up this way. Like my aunt said, its too late to apologise now. Damn. She's so going to hate me. So is my brother. And my uncle. I'm a bad sister, and a bad niece. :(

It's only too late for me to say anything now. What's done cannot be undone. As much as I try to assure myself that everybody makes mistake, and what happened was just a mistake, at the back of my mind, I know I can never forgive myself for this. And all those words of assurance I gave myself is not going to work on me. Fuck.

If saying sorry could make things fine again, I'll say sorry a million times. For now I can only pray that things would not be so bad. But even so, I know the relationships with them would be strained. And I can only just hate myself for the blunder I made. And for giving them more trouble than they already have. Schucks.

And I can just hear them mentioning my name and hurling me with all kind of profanities they can ever think of.

What a bad day I had today. And tomorrow doesn't look any better.