hello.
i can't get to sleep, and i guess i won't be sleeping anytime soon. i desperately need someone to talk to, to let out what have been stored inside me for a very long time. but i can't find anyone, whom i can rely on. i just need solace. my god, is that even difficult to ask for?

i've kind of given up on things, i'll let things be and go with the flow. the many insecurities are building up inside me, but i tell myself that i shouldn't be too paranoid, that things aren't how i assumed them to be. they're just illusions i made up and they're far from my assumption.
like someone said, that's just life, and you'll have to accept it. :)

my oh my, every single noise i hear makes my heart skip a beat. why am i feeling so... i don't know what. but yeahh, its definitely not a good feeling.

Love can be a many splendored thing,
Can't deny the joy it brings.
It'll make you hear a symphony,
And you just want the world to see.
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time.

on a lighter note...

fuck! i just saw a house lizard. oh my. fuck fuck fuck. its huge. and, ahh. it just sends chills down my spine.
okay, that wasn't intentional. but whatever.

thanks redha, for being a good listening ear. appreciate it alot! hehe.
good night.