three beautiful ladies

I'm dedicating this post to the three most deserving girls who made my poly life wort remembering.

Sophiani

I knew you since secondary school but we never talked until we met in poly. Hehe among us you probably is the most straight-forward and honest but your advices always come in at the right time. Thank you babe. I never really thought I'd be this close to you but I am, and I am glad I met you because you made my life a whole lot better. Without fail, everytime I have classes with you, our laughters are neverending. Heehee, I am definitely gonna miss you so much, and going crazy with you, and just you being there around me all the time. Remember, whenever there's me, there's you? Hehe life is gonna take us both on different paths now, but let's make an effort to maintain our friendship ok? pssst, can't wait for ur big day!!

Nadiah.

Ahh to think the girl that I used to dislike the first time I see her managed to carve a big big part on my life. Hee. Firstly, thank you babe for never failing to be there for me when I need you. I'll never forget the time I called you crying in the morning and you were there for me. Hehe. Thank you. I'll miss going crazy with you, you know? And endless camwhoring on people's phone (Soph is always the victim, hehe). So many things I've shared and went through with you in the past 3 years. So fast eh? I really hope you won't falter away from me since we will no longer be seeing each other frequently any more because you are one of the few girls who have seen me at my worst, my craziest moments and there's just so many awesome memories with you. Stay okay? :)

Aisha.

Among us, you're obviously considered as the quietest. Hehehe. But babe, you are the first friend I made in poly. I wasn't close to Nadiah and Soph remember? But I was close to you. Hehe. So of course I do not want you to go away in my life. Hehe, I'll miss having you come over my house la, going crazy over FYP and at the end of the day, end up having girls talk. Heehee. You'll always listen to me ranting on and on and on.. and for that, thank you! I know you'll always remember me as the girl who always wear a skirt and curly hair right? Hehe. Quick find a boyfriend please, you're not getting younger love. Hehehe.

So to all of you three girls, thank you. I can never thank you guys enough la because we've all been through so much the past three years, we've shared a lot of good memories. Other friends come and go, but all of us have stayed together throughout. :) Things will be different now onwards, all of us going different ways, but it is possible if all of us put in effort to catch up with each other now and then.

Love you three girls a lot a lot a lot!

HUGS&KISSES!

You know the feeling of having so many things to say but you can't put all of them in words? Yeap, exactly what I'm feeling now. I just feel like talking, I wish I could do so with someone but I always have trouble doing so. I'd choked on my words, I'll sound incoherent or I'd just be a mute. Yeah that's the trouble with me, I can never put my emotions in words.

Right now, I have anger, disappointment, sadness, numb and just.. I don't know. I probably am immune to it already, it gets easier to heal every time but what hurts is that I'm always left alone to handle and pick up the pieces by myself every time my heart breaks. And every time I'm done picking up the pieces, someone breaks it again and I'd have to do the whole process another time. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't bother picking the broken fragments since it's just gonna break again.

Oh wells, 2 words.

Fuck love.

I used to be able to blog my thoughts out anytime I felt like it. Though lately typing it down seem to be such a difficult task. Even thinking of what to blog about seems to be one of the hardest things to do in life. Err yeah, you get the drift.

The year 2011 has been treating me good so far, Alhamdulillah. Of course along the way there are hiccups especially when it comes to the opposite sex but again, haven't they always been trouble? Well, for me at least. Haha. Whatever, not that I care... *roll eyes*

Oh yes! I am graduating school in less than a month. Pretty psyched bout it actually, but I'm not exactly anticipating working life. Working life to me means heavier responsibility.. and more bills to pay. Ha ha.

You see, typing that one chunk of words above took me about an hour. Can you believe it? I need to get my writing skills back! Used to enjoy penning down my thoughts anytime but now its such a chore... Doodeedoo.

Internet - Yay or Nay?

I'm beginning to think that technology could be the cause of some relationship breakdowns. With the recent spate of arguments I've witnessed over the internet, I can safely say technology is harmful - when used inappropriately.

Facebook for instant - A social network great for catching up with friends and also a great platform to widen your circle of friends. However, it should be limited to that. It should not be used as a platform to voice your unhappiness regarding your family, friends and whoever. Why? Because as discreet as you try to be, it is the internet we're talking about and just ANYBODY can have access to it. I personally do not condone the act of airing your dirty linen in public. And in the case where I witnessed, blames were pushed to one another over who-told-who-about-this-and-that. You aired your dirty linen in public, don't go on blaming others when you get dirty looks. Blame yourself for using the internet as a platform to voice your opinions. It not only undermines your pride and dignity, it also affects your relationship with others.

That brings me to the question, yay or nay for the internet?